To New Beginnings…
This month, the theme for the blog is “beginnings.” A new start, a fresh start, or a re-start is what’s surrounding me at the moment. Come read about how new beginnings have shaped me as a person and how they have had an effect on my life.
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When I was 19, I dropped out of university. It was truly one of the lowest moments of my life. I haven’t found the best words to describe what and how I felt, but let me tell you that it was awful. I always thought of myself as a very intelligent person. Someone that had so much promise and potential. That was until I thought I wasted it.
While I was out of school and I wasn’t working, I tried to figure out how to best spend my time. I didn’t know what the hell I wanted to do so I created a list of things that interested me and started doing them. One of those things was reading blogs. After reading a few and realizing how similar a lot of them were, I thought that if I started one it could be a chance to, in a way, reinvent myself and present myself as the person that I wanted people to see. I had this fantastical idea of how I would build this whole new persona and how I would have a fresh start, a new beginning. Kole, version 2.0. I ended up having a handful more new beginnings along the way.
I had my first real new start when I started university at Georgia Southern. I was a new person, in a new environment, about to go forth and experience new things in life. I had another new start when I dropped out of school. I was back in the city, but this time I was on my own…I wouldn’t have friends or talk to anyone outside of my immediate family for a little over four years. I had another new start when I re-enrolled in school in 2016 at Georgia State.
All of these new starts allowed me a fresh slate which I greatly tried to learn from past experiences and make my present experiences even better. Sometimes I succeeded and sometimes I didn’t. But nevertheless, a new beginning allowed me to regroup, review, plan, and execute that plan. It’s motivating and encouraging as hell for me to know that I can reinvent myself and my life at the drop of the dime.
Today, my new start is a little different. My new start isn’t necessarily geared towards something going on in my life, but rather geared towards me. I’m starting a new blog. I am refocusing on getting healthier and back in shape. I’m getting back into the swing of working on all of the projects that fulfill me and provide a much needed outlet to escape. I am also getting refreshed and refocused on my future. I’m finally graduating university soon and I am actively looking forward to what the future holds.
Aside from me, the people around me are experiencing new beginnings to. Whether it be a new relationship, a new career path, a new job, a new environment, a new move, everything around me is beginning fresh too. I’d encourage you to take a good look at your life and the world around you and assess if a new start is a good move for you. I’ll leave you with a quote from Alan Cohen, “Do not wait until the conditions are perfect to begin. Beginning makes the conditions perfect.”